Straight through my heart
Thursday, September 8, 2011
faded Memories
♥; 8:19 PM
i guess i am just a machine of tools.
for friends and family.
treat me well when you all in good mood.
treat me badly, venting anger on me when things dont go right.
i dont think you all know that i still have a heart in me as well.
i feel hurt and pain as well.
the more you do it.
its not that i dont feel anything.
its that im retreating back to my own world.
the darkest of all.
!!! IM NOT EMO. IM JUST QUIET!!!!
just tear my heart up once again.
no matter how, because i seem to be able to heal myself afterwards.
im jealous. this world is selfish.
isn't god or buddha or whoever suppose to make us all fair.
i wish im not normal .
i wish im beyond just a normal human being.
i want to be more than just human.
i want more than it.
i want power, of earth, sky, universe.
everything.
i want to get back at everything.
i wish i was different.
this is not me at all.